Keith Maczkiewicz, SJ goes back to school, finds himself in a freshman Spanish class and remembers how uncool being cool can be.
On campus at Holy Cross Keith Maczkiewicz, SJ is beginning to hear the question every college senior dreads: “What are you doing next year?” He finds an answer unfolding in the present–the sacred now.
¿Alguna vez has pedido perdón antes de hacer una pregunta en clase? Keith Maczkievicz, SJ se pregunta quién te enseñó a hacer eso… y luego te anima a dejar de hacerlo.
Have you ever apologized before asking a question in class? Keith Maczkiewicz, SJ wonders who taught you to do that…and then encourages you not to.
“As I walked home I began to recognize that the invitation to be so often rides in tandem with my desire to do, and would overtake it, if I’d only let it.”
In those tearful moments, at the end of a long day, I was sure of something: like a new parent at the window of a hospital nursery, God marvels at us. And lingers.
“Severe”, “unfriendly” – the words hit too close to home. So I went back to dig around: what’s the desire underneath my reluctance? What do I want?
This can’t be what extraordinary looks like, I think. But it can. And it’s the holding out for something so perfectly special that keeps me from missing what’s right before me.
I did not call up my formerly-very-good-friends because I was more or less paralyzed by one question: how long is too long before giving up hope of reconnecting?